I'm a 32 year old woman looking for help.
First of all I'm writing this in english because in Latinamerica is still a taboo to have a mental illness, and I have two of them!!
I am married with a lovely man, got a carreer, friends and family and all of them help as they could; maybe tons of people ask, how is it even possible to think in a depression with a great life? .... well, i've got news, I am in a deep depression and have an anxiety that makes me live in hell.
I want to use this blog to find help, eventhough Im in therapy it's not working at all, i'd been changing of psychologist, psychiatrist for years, different countries and nothing work.
At this episode of my depression I`ve experimented new ways of live in hell and I can't find a treatment that makes me feel good.
It seems that my head isn't connected with my body, for example, i want to cook something or cleaned my apartment but my body does not even move a finger and that frustrated me and makes me feel really bad, if i want to get out for a walk my body responds being an asshole and everything that I do is feeling bad for everything that i'm missing day by day.
My new days are dark i don't open the window or the courtains and remain all day eating (because the antidepressants makes me eat like the end of the world is coming soon) and now I remember that I have problems with gain weight.
If someone maybe feels like me or know some other new treatments or anything to feel better, I'm gonna really be gratefull or maybe to share symptoms with me for free, it's kind of lame to pay tons of money for someone that hears me for an our and adjust my meds without feeling wellness or see a result.
